see how it Lands

I'm downhill. And rolling never felt so good. Currently playing: Johnny Cash's "At Folsom Prison" album, and he's in there, serenading the inmates and laughing with his fellow jailbirds. It's the start of a long session of missed chances to write more pages and do so effectively. Though, this start has an abrupt end, premature and sudden.


So, here it goes. This is not a class in philosophy nor a therapy session transcript. This is just an attempt to speak (or write for y'all nitpicking bastards out there) what is currently in the buzz. Somehow, I see things as rolling in their own courses, being pushed by ripples or repercussions of their own making. That what we do create disturbances in an otherwise stagnant and still world. We are rabble rousers, earth shakers. Some are greater than others, some are louder than the jeepney you rode to work that Monday morning while some enjoy the thump they create only for their own.

"Anything can be an instrument. Small things. Things you wouldn't even notice. They pass from hand to hand. People don't pay attention. And then one day there's an accounting. And after that, nothing is the same."

These are the words of Anton Chigurh, a character of pure evil and neutrality. There are just bullets in his chamber or a bullet in you. That's what counts and that's what will happen. And all this can be decided in a coin toss.

I have put in disregard things that I don't notice. Then there are the repercussions of that disregard. Regret soon follows and epiphanies of recalling the "signs" that say "Oops, shouldn't have done that." Well, the accounting has indeed happened and when the price tag shows, you just have to pay for it.


We shake up everything, even to the ground if and while we can. But when that accounting comes, that moment of payback and redemption, not many get the kick of it. The problem is that many people deceive themselves and con their minds to think that there is another way out, but, truthfully, there isn't. We just have to make good with that coin and flip it again, not relying on it entirely, but to see if the next flip will turn the tides in our favor.


In our lifetimes we'd have to flip that coin again and again. Hoping for different results, fails and successes that we would really want. We'd intentionally wish to fail in some cases and we'd do that over and over again in our stay here. We are running our of our precious youth, it is better to make each ripple we make count. This is not a call for YOLO. Fck that, and its originators. 


What we should do is keep flipping our coins to better causes for us to take. As long as we are young, as long as we are bright and perky and until we get the gray streaks and settle for heavier coins to flip, we should be ready for every accounting that we face after. We just can't take anything and everything, is all.